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Apr27

Happy Birthday Luis!

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Happy 39th Birthday in Heaven Luis!!

I still can’t believe that you are gone. Today is your 39th birthday and you are with our daughter in heaven dancing around, laughing, plotting on playing practical jokes on your favorite people down here on this chaotic planet. I know Madison is missing you like crazy especially on days like today. You were each others world when you were still with us and I pray for her every day. I know you watch over her and visit her often. I can’t imagine how hard it is for her without you. She became your little helper and would fight you tooth and nail when you didn’t listen. (Your girls are warriors) She is definitely your child just like Soli she was born to shine like a bright star in the sky. Will is an amazing dad and strong minded man. I know in my heart he wanted to be a great dad like you and he is doing an amazing job at it. Jackie is kicking ass as a mom and staying strong like a true Goddess. Dianna is doing her best and her girls are doing great, little Emma is just a ball of cuteness and love.

So I want to say, “Thank you for sending me your smile through another.” (I find him absolutely delicious ;-)) My heart stopped when I saw it and thought, “Damn you Luis, this was all you!” I swear I heard your laugh in that moment. I know it was you, Soli and mom who picked him out for me. So far he has been able to handle me and not go running in the opposite direction but then again I’m amazing why would he. HAHAHAHA We will see how far it goes but you all were determined to see me with a family and well I can say I do love his kids even though I haven’t met them yet. Thank you again for making sure that I wasn’t alone anymore even though I am a bit scared but not enough to run for the hills. I am trying my best and I hope to make you all proud.

P.S. I wish I could just see that smile again one more time or hear you call me your PIA. I am so grateful and honored that I was chosen to be your soul mate and that I was chosen to be the mother of one of your beautiful daughters.

Love to you on your birthday Luis!!

From your favorite PIA!!!

Sep30

Fabulously 40!

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HI!!

So turning 40 has been thus far the best birthday I have had in many years.  I have never been one to make a fuss over my birthday and I get embarrassed when people fuss over me.  This year I put an end to that, I embraced the love I received from friends that have become family.  I also realized that with this change of attitude towards my birthday when someone didn’t show up they were not meant to be there.  Life has a way of having the ones that need to be present to arrive with open arms and I received them with such gratitude & love.  It started with having a first date with the sweetest guy on my birthday eve and he made sure he was the first to wish me happy birthday in person, he is a great kisser.  I haven’t had someone just hold me in their arms and wish me happy birthday since I was married in my 20’s.  I hadn’t realized how much I had missed that 1st birthday kiss and hug.

When I reflected on that moment later that morning, I remembered how my ex-husband Luis would always wake me at midnight on my birthday and give me the biggest kiss and hold me in his arms until I feel asleep again.  He was a loving and tender man and dealt with my stubbornness like a champ.  He would always call me his PIA(pain in the ass) than laugh it off and say he wouldn’t have it any other way.  We started out life together young and grew up very quickly together, he was 18 and I was 19.  When our daughter was born I thought to myself, “how did we end up here so quickly” but I fell into the role as mom the moment I saw her beautiful face.  I had sent Luis off that morning to work telling him I was fine just a bit uncomfortable because of the weather and I wasn’t due for another 9 days.  Well 15 minutes after he left the contractions kicked in and there was no way to reach him since he was on the subway.  My brother was staying with us so I woke him up told him, ” let’s go I’m in labor”.  He jumped out of bed and off we went to the hospital.  By the time I had arrived to the hospital and given birth Luis had just arrived to work.  My brother ran out the room once he kissed his niece and told her he loved her to call Luis.  When he arrived to the hospital he came running into the room, kissed my forehead and was off to see our daughter in the nursery.  I was in more pain post delivery than when I was in labor.  We didn’t know what we were having, we wanted to look forward to our blessing with faith that the baby would just be perfect.  We didn’t care either way just a healthy baby.  It was one of the best days of my life, she was due on my birthday but she decided that she wanted to be here to sing or should I say coo, “happy birthday” to her mommy.  I remember looking at him adoringly as he held her with such care and kissing her fingers and toes over and over again.

The moments that will always bring a happy tear to your eye and in my heart I knew Luis was the one who sent me that sweet man to wish me happy birthday as gently as he would.  He was a great man and loved me in a way I had never known, I miss my best friend dearly but I know he watches over me with his daughter by his side in heaven.  So I embrace the twists and turns my forties will bring me and know that this ride will only get better with time.  Smile because those are the little things in life which brings beauty to another.