My love in heaven,

It’s been 2 years that you’re gone now and I feel as if it was just the other day that I got the call from your little sister and brother.  I miss my soulmate, best friend, life partner and confidant.  As I reflect on the parts of your life I was so blessed to be a part of and the family we had together, I couldn’t help but sit here and want to believe there is a purpose behind this all coming to a close so early on in our lives. I spent your anniversary day without the distractions of the modern world, I just couldn’t be bothered with the nuisances of the phone, computer or TV.  I didn’t want to hear about people enjoying their day or laughing I just needed to be in quiet and at peace in my heart remembering the life we had with our daughter.  I listened to some old songs that you liked so much and I had to laugh because I could clearly see you doing your silly dance moves.   I could picture you so clearly, as if you were in my living room with me.  Your laugh echoed in my ears as I envisioned your smile and wished to hear you just one more time.  I know you are in a better place with our daughter and neither one of you are in pain anymore which makes it easier for me to deal with the day-to-day chaos of this world.   You see my beloved, you were the only man who has known me for me, behind the smile, behind the day-to-day masks, behind my OCD’s and all the silliness I use to help make each day a bit brighter and easier.  You were the one who would call me on my shit and even though it would tick me off I knew it was coming from a place of true love.  You did always enjoy calling me your, “Pain in the ass”, than laugh until I broke into a smile.  You left so soon, so young, so loved by many but most of all you left because you couldn’t live in that pain anymore and our angel guided you home.  I still remember our conversations about us getting old together and our partners having to deal with us being the best of friends until our dying day.  Well it seems they will not have to worry about that but you will always have a place in my heart and no one can ever change that.  You have marked your space there along side our daughter.

So I say, “Thank you for loving me, Thank you for being my soulmate, Thank you for being a wonderful father to our daughter but most of all Thank you for seeing me for me.”  I will always love you!  Kisses to you in heaven!